The End

My chest has been hurting, the end may be near
I've had words to say but no one to hear
Not a shoulder to cry on, not even a hug
No one to kiss me, or give me some love

I'm so fat, I'm so ugly no one looks my way
She loved me a while ago, why not today ?
Silence isn't golden from the one that you love
only love left for me, comes from above

Died of a broken heart

Everyone knew I was falling apart
but did nothing to save me
so if you find me dead, and you will
I died alone of a broken heart

I've been crying everyday and I can't stop
everything bothers me and nothing is right
My therapist wasn't interested in seeing me
even she finds me hopeless I guess

Sharon Kesson dying was such a shock
I loved her so much, but then she was gone
we only just begun and then I was one
she's the first one I loved who loved me back

Everyone else i loved, was in love with someone else, there just is no love for me, it is so lonely without any human touch, I'm so repulsive I can't even get a kiss

I tried to belong, but I just don't fit
not being loved drives me out of my wits
I begged for love, but it never came
and with no where else to go, I go insane

I never knew

I never knew loneliness could hurt so much,
longer it goes on the more I am out of touch
I never knew the years could go by so fast,
not sure how much longer my sanity can last

I never knew that I would lose hope,
without your love I just can't cope
I never knew I would feel so lost,
I gave my heart freely and look what it cost

I never knew I'd feel so depressed,
when I think of you, I feel so obsessed
I never knew that I'd want to die
cause without you, all I do is cry.

© 2014 Paul A. Millard

Inside A Love Stream

You're the one that I want, that I can't have
that I had even though you don't remember
my first kiss, my first bliss, in a cornfield
behind your home in August or September

Those eyes of yours are sapphire Blue
and forever etched in my mind
You a sweet silhouette in a paisley dress
the years for you have been kind

The things that we did, when we were kids
Come back to me in my dreams
I never forget, or regret how you loved me,
in our moment in time, inside a love stream

 © 2014 Paul Millard