I didn't ask for my life to be like this

I didn't ask for my life to be like this, it isn't what I wanted,
A normal life is what I sought, not to be alone and haunted
I dreamed of a family and kids of my own
not abandoned and left all alone

My first wife was infertile and a cheat who broke my heart
her secrets and lies is what drove us apart
My second was mean with a son, but I consented
to be his father, but of me he only resented

My last three girlfriends died really quick
it wasn't my fault but it's made me real sick
Even my fantasy relationship didn't work out
alwayz one way, when it's for me she's never about

I'm fastly becoming a bitter old man
because NOTHING turns out the way I plan
I didn't expect my life to be full of bliss
But I didn't ask for my life to be like this

© 2016 Paul Millard

Why ?

No one sees my struggle, they only see the trouble. not knowing it's hard to carry on when no one loves you but I still don't give up Why ?

Forgotten Begotten

It was hard to be married to someone who saw everyone else's pain but couldn't or didn't see mine, while everyone else got nurturing, I was left to my own devices as I was growing up, my feelings, my fears went unanswered leaving me all alone,  disenfranchised lost in my own little world, I wasn't wanted, except for my paycheck and health insurance, so when I left why was it my fault ? She pushed me away, no one wanted me to be family or they'd given me a part. I almost changed my mind and stayed until I came home and found MY tree stripped of it's bark left to die, I invested a lot of time and effort to see to it, that the tree grew up straight and balanced, it was a male Mulberry tree, so no fruit or sap dripping from it....anyway when they killed it, they killed any chance of me staying...... Nothing is changed I still help everyone, and no one is there for me, I have needs too. I am the forgotten begotten..